Chemo isn’t what I expected it to be at all. I thought I’d feel sick or even look sick. But instead I look like me and don’t feel at all normal or the same.
It’s hard to concentrate on anything, it’s hard to care about things happening around me. I’m starving all the time but food doesn’t have much flavour. It’s like a weird sort of hell. You get moments of normalcy here and there but they take so much energy that you’re just back to being exhausted again.
I can see how hard this will be now. I can feel how much worse it can be by going back in next week and doing it again, 7 more times again. I know there’s an end in sight but this is already so hard.