It’s the first day I’ve been alone with Evie since we found out. Ell flew to Amsterdam for the day and left me to it, although Uncle Bradley was here which was nice!
I didn’t even think about the cancer. I had really long periods where I completely forgot and just had fun with my girl. I feel so much less stress. I’ve also discovered that I have to ignore all the cancer support websites/books/etc. They are all so depressing and I don’t find them helpful. What I have liked though is the word ‘coping’. Every day we are coping, feeling our way through it and next Tuesday is my surgery so we will feel SO much better after that. A fresh start, a new perspective, and just continuing to cope.

Feeling: Hopeful