I’ve been quiet. January through to March in the U.K. is just a non stop torment of bad weather. My whole body hates the winter. I am usually in bed by 9 just to stay warm!

So what news is there? Not much. In January I went for a routine appointment but had noticed a new lump on my right side. My surgeon decided we should do a biopsy and I was really stunned. Surely we don’t need to biopsy breasts that aren’t real breasts? It’s fat from my stomach and thighs!? But yes they did and it was fine, just hardened fat. Surprisingly I could actually feel pain etc where I thought I was actually numb. Roll on three months later and I still have a mark from where they put the needle in.

We are (hopefully) going to Barbados in a few weeks time and my anxiety about my weird post surgical nightmare of a body has already started to kick into high gear. Elliott thinks I look great, but honestly I’ll probably never be happy with it. I need to resolve myself to just being happy that I get to watch our amazing girls grow up and not focus on superficial cosmetic things that really don’t matter, but that is a very hard thing to do!!