So my stomach cramping got worse and worse and unfortunately I’m now in hospital on the third floor. But of course not because of my stomach cramps but instead because they checked my blood and now I need a transfusion. My haemoglobin is too low. Platelets are also scary but I’m so far not going to get any of those.
I just can’t sleep. My head is killing me but they don’t want me to take anything at all right now. I’m not exactly sure why. Maybe it has to do with getting someone else’s blood in the morning? I feel so humble and grateful that people donate blood. I can’t stop crying thinking about how truly amazing people can be for complete strangers.
I’m also feeling pretty sorry for myself. I feel so badly that I’m putting all my friends and family though this sadness. That they/you! have to worry about me. I’ve tried so hard to be positive this time round and the last thing I want is for people to worry about me. I just want to be in my own bed. I miss my baby girl. I miss Elliott 😢
I know I will feel better in a few hours. I’ll have fresh blood (a top-up for my current crappy blood!!) and hopefully I’ll get to go home after that.